... so this is the continuation and ending of my story of my previous blog tittled I NEVER THOUGHT HE COULD BE MINE .. after 3 years of rocky road together..I loved those years thoug..caring, loving, fight, and etc. But being with someone who don't know how to compromised? Don't know what commitment means. Someone who is so insensitive. These questions pop up abruptly in my mind.
My love, where did we gone wrong?
And why did I ignore all the signs that you have had shown. When will I ever learn my lesson.
But maybe I’m asking all the wrong questions, maybe the right questions are, are you really commited? Did you really love me or did you just mistook it for love because I was the one who made your fantasy into reality? You were afraid to be alone with all the changes in your life that’s why it’s convenient for me to be around. You just need someone who will support you, make it happen, and you mistook it for love.
You’re right, I don’t deserve someone like you. I deserve someone who will be thankful he has me on his life instead of thinking I deserve someone else. I deserve someone who will make me a priority. I deserve someone who will be fully commited, and willing to compromised things. I deserve someone who will see me as a blessing and will not ignore me. I deserve someone who will fight for me. I deserve someone who will love me for who I am. I deserve someone special.
My love, where did we gone wrong?
And why did I ignore all the signs that you have had shown. When will I ever learn my lesson.
But maybe I’m asking all the wrong questions, maybe the right questions are, are you really commited? Did you really love me or did you just mistook it for love because I was the one who made your fantasy into reality? You were afraid to be alone with all the changes in your life that’s why it’s convenient for me to be around. You just need someone who will support you, make it happen, and you mistook it for love.
You’re right, I don’t deserve someone like you. I deserve someone who will be thankful he has me on his life instead of thinking I deserve someone else. I deserve someone who will make me a priority. I deserve someone who will be fully commited, and willing to compromised things. I deserve someone who will see me as a blessing and will not ignore me. I deserve someone who will fight for me. I deserve someone who will love me for who I am. I deserve someone special.
Burn all the letters that I gave you, together with all the memories that we had, but please don’t burn the lessons we learned along the way.
Don’t play the songs that we liked to li together, instead create a playlist that remind you of who you are today.
You don’t need to wear the watch I gave you, but don’t forget how special time is.
I tried to understand many times, I approached many people to help me understand . Lastly i talk to your counselor. I tried to walk into your shoes, but I can’t, I will never understand, because you don't want me to. I stopped asking all the questions that will never be answered, I got tired of being angry, cry, and i start hating myself. Then i realized this is not who I am, that’s why I chose to forgive , and let go not for your sake but to make peace to myself , and to our son who will now depending on me.
My love, I need to move on now, I need to let go and thank you for all the lessons, I’m ready to step out of my comfort zone now. I’m ready to create my own future with Dean.
Freedom is my nature and always was.
From the best person you’ve ever met.
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